Saturday, December 27, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Today is Christmas Eve & I have so much to do. Les is at work I have to finish laundry, get the house in order & get tons of wrapping done. I still have to run out to finish the baby telling gift for my mom & sisters. I will post tomorrow about how that goes! I am still having cramping pretty frequently, its really more annoying then painful & everything I read says its my ute stretching, so if its my little bear getting comfy I can absolutely deal with that!! I am feeling VERY nauseated today, I have good days & bad & I have the distinct impression its only going to get worse! I am 5 weeks today my symptoms include, nausea off & on, sore tender boobs, very sensitive nips, cramping & major issues with going to the bathroom & and some wacky vivid dreams!
Baby Bear, I can feeling you growing & getting cozy in there, just keep on doing that. This week you are the size of an apple seed, however your heart will form & even start to beat! Mommy can't wait to hear that! Everyday mommy and daddy pray and give thanks for the miracle of you, and pray that you will be safe in there for 8 more months or so! Tonight we are telling you grandma & aunties & you Lolo & Lola about you. Everyone is going to be so very excited! You hold so much promise for our family in 2009! Stay cozy! LOve you lots!
Friday, December 19, 2008
Yesterday we went out Christmas shopping and had fun owwing and awwing over all the sweet little baby things. I even went to Kohl's and bought some summer maernity clothes clearing for like $2 a peice. I needed to buy a new bra already!! The whole double boob appearance was not very flattering at all! My mom called me last night upset because she thinks I am upset about not gettign PG fast LMAO!! I felt a little bad that she is so stressed about it when I am keeping this secret! It will be worth it for her to find out Christmas Day anyways!
I am feelign good these last 2 days, Wednesday was brutal tho!! My sis was out shoppign with me & I was constantly fighting nausea, it was awful. I just blamed it on AF so I dont' think she suspects anything.
Dear Baby Bear, mommy & daddy are so excited about you! Everyday that goes by it becomes more & more real that you are coming. We pray everyday for your health & safety, and give thnaks to God for blessing us with you. Keep growing big & strong, and when summer comes we will finally get to meet you. Daddy thinks your a girl, I have no idea, but really we don't care we just want you! Love you lots!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Luckily I was able to get my BETA drawn yesterday, I am still waiting for the results. I am hopeing to have it repeated tomorrow. This morning I took a digital test I can't believe the joy I felt in seeing the word "pregnant"! Although it still hasn't completely sunk in I think I may already have a few symptoms, or maybe its all in my head. I definetly am bloated, having issues with my pants being way too tight! ALso very nauseated, almost all day long & very tired as well. But I LOVE IT!!
Of course I feel totally silly for how emtional I was thinkign I didn't O because the temping didn't work! I just had to trust my body I guess! We are just so happy, I am 4 weeks today! I can't wait to tell my family, my mom asked today if I got AF and I lied!! I really want it to be a Christmas surprise! We plan on telling our immediate families Christmas Eve, if the Beta's come back OK. 2 years ago on Christmas Eve we got engaged, so it seems liek a great time to share the news. Our parents are going to be estatic! We just have to think up a great way to do it!!
To my Little Baby Bear, your mommy & daddy are so excited to know that you are coming. We love you so much already & you are so very wanted! We are very thankful to God for creatign you jsut for us & every day we pray that you grow big & strong inside of me! We can't wait till everybody else knows about you!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
1. Link to the person who tagged you.
2. Share 7 random and/or weird facts about you.
3. Tag up to 7 random people at the end, and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know they’ve been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.
1. I am slightly OCD and super organized
2. I love to travel & went on exchange to Sweden for 6 months
3. I am terribly uncoordinated & can't play videogames
4. I HATE cleaning & have been known to PAY my little sis to doe housework
5. I have only had 2 real boyfriends & married my high school sweetheart
6. I used to collect all things PIGS (had over 400!)
7. I love the show Jon & Kate plus 8 & imagine my little ones looking like theirs!
I tag skinnursemandee , Amy & ILoveJav
Today has just been a lovely lazy day, in my Pj's slowly doing housework & laundry while bumping & relaxing. Its nice to have a day like this every now & then.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
No phantom symptoms yet, except the cravings, but I'm an odd ball and often have cravings for all sorts of things! I expect af Tuesday but not sure if I will test that morning or wait till Wednesday afternoon as I work nights Tuesday. Between tomorrow & then I must resist the urge to poas!
I find I am becoming increasingly obsessed with all things baby! I love looking at baby bedding & imagining how I will decorate our little bears nursery, or wandering thru the baby depratment, ohing and awwing over sweet little outfits! Oh then of course there is my bumping, which DH thinks is totally out of control, but I could say similar things about his addiction to video games! ANd now this blogging, I becoem completely enthraled with other peoples ttc journeys, I love reading their experiences and feeling like there are people so much liek me out there. By the time we actually do get PG this could get completely out of control! LOL
For now I suppose I can go on happily with my little life & my big baby dreams!
Monday, December 8, 2008
I am looking forward to tonight, having a girls night in with pizza & movies, anything to distract me from the pain & of course the 2ww!
Friday, December 5, 2008
I think I am so upset about this because I just want to know that I am OK, that I am Oing...with my endo and the question of PCOS I am so nervous that this won't happen for me. It leaves me with either I haven't O'd yet, I did O and it wasn't detected or for some reason I am not Oing at all. Now I am in a major limbo, its like a 2ww but worse. I will keep temping and hope to see a rise and keep BDing everyother day just to be safe.
DH is not cncerned at all. He thinks its too early to worry, that we shoudl jsut relax about everything for a few months and let things happen on their own. I get his view, however with my history feel like I should be more proactive. After we get beack from the Phillipines if I am not pregnant I think I will look into OPKs or a monitor. If I am not pregnant by April I am going to ask for soem tests to be done. My mother & my sister both got pregnant when consciously trying NOT to, I was hoping I would have some of their genes in me....perhaps not.
Monday, December 1, 2008
Work was a little difficult last night. All of my patients were teenagers, and none of them in positions financially, or pschologically to provide to babies, yet here they are pregnant, or with a beautiful newborn. It frusturates me how that can happen yet there are so many people who would make wonderful parents & who coudl give a baby the world who are struggling ttc. I have to remind myself to have faith, and not to question God's plan in all of this.