Monday, May 31, 2010

A step back...

If anyone still reads this I'm sorry. Clearly I have taken a step back from blogging. It wasn't intentional and I hope its not permanent. Things are just busy and something had to give.
I hurt my back pretty seriously a few weeks back and have been seeing the chiropractor regularly and unfortunately this has set back my work out routine.
Logan is so busy these days, he just doesn't stop. He is happy and wonderful and healthy and non stop. He is a super crawler and just in the past few days has started walking with his push toys.
I am planning the ultimate pirate party, for what looks like a guest list of 90 people.
I go mack to work in 8 weeks and my "to do list" of things to accomplish before then is perhaps a little over zelous. This includes such things as cleaning out all my cupboards, creating a play room for L, finshing (and starting for that matter) L's first year book, getting away on a few family trips, and the list goes on.
We are cltoh diapering part time and its going great.
I hope to share more, including photos of all these happenings very soon. Right now sleep isn't going well and so Iam going to nap with my babe.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

My first mother's day!

Last year I got a few cards and a small willow tree figurine to honour my first mother's day with a baby on the way. I was still feeling well and so very excited.
I had no idea just how amazing this journey would be.

This mother's day my very best gift came from Logan. On Thursday he started saying "mama", the sweetest words I have ever heard.
Les had to work on Mother's Day so we celebrated on Friday. I stayed in bed 2 hrs longer then my men did, until 9:30 and then was greeted with pancakes in bed! Yummy
For my Mother's Day gift I got the Tassimo coffee maker. I have wanted one for a few years now and was super excited! We have already been getting lots of use out of it! It will be so fun when we have company over.

I am especially excited to be able to enjoy my own chai lattes at home!

Monday, May 3, 2010

When life gives you lemons...

Life lately has been good, I means minus the sleep thing...
However I still have those days, those really tough days when L is super clingy, and my house is in ruins and I just feel like I can't keep up.
Or perhaps I make the mistake of getting on the scale and I see VERY little progress despite my dedication to nutrition and exercise....
And then my sweet boy reminds me what life is all about. He shows me how much I have to be happy for, and just how to handle those lemons...
You hold on, with just one hand if that's what it takes, and you smile despite it.
Speaking of lemons, here Logan decides to give one a try...

Not sure if he liked it or not, he went back for seconds...

And of course life is all about improvising and compromising, nothing like a new way to use a shopping cart. But who doesn't love when their baby sleeps thru the ENTIRE grocery trip?
My sweet boy reminds me often that life is much better then I give it credit for. There aren't too many lemons these days, and when there are we are still pretty happy.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

In search of balance

Logan is an amazing little eater, most people are just shocked when they see him eat. I am so happy with our decision to take a BLW approach. Logan eats everything we eat. He seems to like everything except avocado. We are up to 3 solid meals a day plus one or two snacks, depending on our schedule. He is still nursing 4-7 times in 24 hrs and sometimes takes a bottle of formula before bed. His favourite foods seem to be broccoli, corn, chicken and yogurt.

Logan is oh so busy these days! Wonderful and sweet and just non stop. He is crawling now, full on up on all 4's crawling! He is fast too, especially when going after the cat, cat food or anything electronic! He is pulling up a ton too, on everything, from the couch to his toys, to the wall! He can get back down efficiently and has even mastered squatting to pick up a toy and getting back up one handed. It just amazes me. I am so in love with this little man.

You would think with all this non stop activity and eating that the boy would be a good sleeper, I now I'm exhausted just trying to keep up to him! However sleep is where we are struggling these days. Logan is a busy body, a social bug, he likes to be out and about, the days we stay home he is unsettled and cranky. When we aer out he naps wen he is tired and is pretty flexible about where, even if he misses a nap he is pretty happy and content to be out. Bedtime is another issue....

We are back to co-sleeping, this in itself is not such an issue for me. The problem is Logan will not fall asleep or stay asleep unless I am in bed with him, and he is touching me. After a 2 hr struggle between the crib, our bed and my arms my sweet boy is finally asleep, beside me. As I sit here in the dimly lit room looking at his sweet face and his hand gently resting against me I think back over the last 9 months. They have just gone by in a blink. I am trying to remind myself of this. I am trying to tell myself to stop, to savour him. He won't always want to be so close, I will crave this one day. I will think back and have trouble remembering his sweet body curled up against me. Perhaps I need to stop fighting it, perhaps I need to find a compromise.

My struggle is my feelings of being overwhelmed. I love Logan, I love motherhood. Some very rare days it goes epically well. I have a happy baby, who naps, and plays and I have a tidy house and laundry folded and dinner cooking. I wish this happened more, most days I feel I just can't keep up. Most days I have a baby who just wants his momma, and most days this is more frustrating then it should be. Most days there are dishes in the sink, laundry piled in baskets needing to be folded, laundry in the washer now needing another rinse cycles, floors needing to be swept, toys needing to be tidied, and a dinner consisting of sandwiches, or take out. I always thought I would be the all together mom, the mom with a baby on a happy schedule, a sparkly house, and of course I would look just great, I won't even get into how I look....

I need more nights like tonight, when I realize that the laundry and the dishes and the floor can wait. That my sweet sleeping boy wont' always need his momma as he does now. I need to learn to ask for more help from my husband. I need to learn to manage things better during the day and perhaps to find a better purpose to an evening in bed beside my Logan. These days too are numbered, in 3 short months I will be back at work and looking back at this time and missing it.